Unlucky day :(

SSigh . Really unlucky day for me . Driving half way car got scratch . On the tayar ring . Luckily there's ntg happened . Reach home , home was just a mess ! jeanjean came out and ruin the house . Wtf . need to clean up all . SIGH !! Well , I thought thats all . I viewed his profile , i saw all the tagged photos have been removed . Unlucky day for me . :((
I feel so depressed right now . And yet , suppose to meet up with soongyi tmr . Seesee she asked me to go with jason =.=
All messed up ! OMFG ! Fml pls !! 
I need someone to talk to :((

Cooking.

It's time for me to show my skill :P COOKING !! Hmm . Enjoyed eating with my sis and bro . Yummiess ,

After defrost *Im going to cook ya* :)

Tadaaaa ! DONE ! Although doesn't look nice but DELICIOUS <3

Should be served with a glass of coke . Owhh . Thats too satisfying <3

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing

Sushi.moments.

Yummy . yummy :))

My favourite ebiko <33

Chuka chinmi :)

Well , enjoyed sushi with sis today . Nah . We ate lot of course . Only two of us there . I know that , no matter what , i must be strong always . Enjoy my life since im in this world . <3>

Weird.feelings.suddenly.appear.

Suddenly feel weird . Dont know why . Its okay . Forget bout the past . Hmm.
Im hungry . Omg . I need food ! LOL .

Final.ending.

We're officially broke up on the 3rdof july . I didnt know we will end up like that . Its really really sad for me . I cried for non stop .I really do miss him . What can i do ? He dont have any feeelings towards me anymore . And well i cant force him to love me also wert . Really had a hard times last night . I thought i come back still can hold back our relationship . I guess this is what god gave me for what i've done . Seriously . He told him i wont cry d . But its really hard , I will concentrate in my study . No more love life . SIGH , Im sad . Dont know he got the same feelings or not . I dont know how to explain to mummy that i alredy broke up with him . Even my aunties all know him d . I really dont know how am i gonna face it . If there's a chance ,i really hope to change my personality , change to be a better one next time . I will try my best to do so . Hope he can find a better one next time . Really headache right now . Haihss .

i.will.always.love.you.

Hmmm . Finally ,he willing to tell the truth . I know he's been thinking alot this few days .
That's why i got abit weird feelings too . But this time i will seriously respect him . I wont force him to love me anymore if he really dont . I wish that i could turn back the time but i know its impossible . Maybe this is what i should get from i did .
No matter what decision he made , i will respect him . :)
Its quite hard for me but i cant force someone to love me . But i really hope that he'll always be by my side to care me , love me .
Its useless for what im saying now . Maybe its my prob for dont know how to appreciate my loves one . I will wait for his answer .
i wont be that silly and zhap ziok anymore . But no matter how .
I still will wait . For his exact answer . Wait for him to care me back . And love me till the last breathe of my life ,
I will always love you david khoo . <3 I wish to get a positive reply from you . -karyan-

Believe.in.true.love?

i wish the feeling could come back..

i believe that i can.. if i want

7:34pmMe

but you didnt .

im trying too .

i feel that this few days you seems like dont wanna talk to me .

i dont know is it because of distance prob or what .

Are you free now ?

7:35pmDavid

yeah

7:36pmMe

come and find me and we'll have a nice talk

7:36pmDavid

i prefer to talk here..

i dont dare to face u

7:36pmMe

why ?

im your girl wert

7:37pmDavid

i dont know what should i do.

7:37pmMe

you got anything to tell me ?

7:37pmDavid

i need sometimes..

7:37pmMe

sometimes ?

7:38pmDavid

yeah..

7:38pmMe

can i ask you smtg ?

7:38pmDavid

u may

7:39pmMe

did you treat me as your gf since the day we argued?

7:39pmDavid

i did.. and i tried

7:39pmMe

okay .

and now .

do you still love me ?

yes or no

7:40pmDavid

i really dont know..

7:41pmMe

can you come and find me now ?

i guess we really need to talk .

7:42pmDavid

pls dont forced me to answer either yes or no..

7:42pmMe

i didnt .

7:42pmDavid

i know..

i just telling u

7:42pmMe

i just want you to come and find me and we'll talk bout this .

7:42pmDavid

i really need sometimes to think probably

7:43pmMe

you may .

7:44pmDavid

i dont hope to make a wrong decision..

7:44pmMe

By right i just hope you to come and find me .

i understand .

7:45pmDavid

i dont dare to faced u

7:45pmMe

Why not ?

7:45pmDavid

i dont know how to tell u

its really complicated to me

7:45pmMe

Did i do anything offending you ?

7:45pmDavid

nope..

its my problem..

i really need sometimes to think probably

7:46pmMe

Did i do anything wrong again ?

7:47pmMe

Im so sorry if i do so .

Im so sorry if i do so .

i really want you to come and find me at least awhile .

im afraid i cant see you anymore after this .

:(

what ever decision you made , i'll respect

but just hope you see you once .

7:48pmDavid

i will find you

but not now..

pls..

gimme sometimes..

7:49pmMe

okay .

7:49pmDavid

i didnt mean to let u cry ~

i am sry ~~

7:50pmMe

i didnt :)

7:50pmDavid

i've been think for long long time....

7:50pmMe

I know im not good enough for you .

Its okay .

7:50pmDavid

i dont wanna cheat you..

7:50pmMe

what you cheat me ?

7:50pmDavid

but ~ i dont wanna hurt u too

i really dont know what to do now..

7:51pmMe

i understand .

What did you cheat me anyway ?

7:54pmDavid

i didnt mean that i cheated on u

i mean that.. i dont wanna cheat u

7:55pmMe

Oh.

whatever decision you made , as long as you're happy,i'll be too .

:)

7:58pmDavid

i dont wanna lie to you.. when i'm not really confirm what i want.. \ i dont wanna u to b hurt.. if u know that l'm lie to you.. thats why everytimes we chat on phone.. i am scared to give u any promises..

7:59pmMe

I understand .

take your time .

7:59pmDavid

give me sometimes.. to think.. and i will give u an answer for my lifetimes..

u know what...

i am crying like panda now.. i'm sry for that..

8:00pmMe

its okay :)

8:00pmDavid

i really didnt mean to hurt you~~

i am sry ~~~~~~

8:00pmMe

I shoudn't force you from the start .

:)

Take your time to think whether you still need me or not .

i wont force you k :)

8:01pmDavid

i wanna sleep for awhile..

txt u later..

8:02pmMe

okay .

sweetdreams

For your info ,

i will wait for you to give me an exact answer .

:)

Love you always .